Monday, August 07, 2006

Give me the 411

I hate to wait. Who, really, likes waiting? If you're at Disneyland, you know that somewhere between 15 minutes and two hours you'll be able to get on that ride. When pregnant, you know that there's literally and figuratively a light at the end of the tunnel. You know the outcome. I'm one of those people who wants nitty gritty details about the future. As a ten year old I didn't just want to know that I would get married, but wanted to know who, when, how and what he'd look like. I heart day planners. My best friends are spontaneous. It's a good, albeit, sometimes stressful match.

I'm not here to complain about the fact that I still have over 5 months to wait for Bill to return. Or that I have 14 years until Trey goes to college. Or that I'm too lazy and/or tired to potty train my very willing two year old. Nope. I'm here to vent my frustrations about most women's main lot in life: The House. I can't tell you how many times we've gone back and forth and sideways and hung a left at the next corner when it comes to our living situation. Do we stay here, do we try to get on base, do we try to buy? We've been on the base housing list since December, and at that time it was a "six month wait". P-shaw. We did that with anticipation that my friend, who usually lives in the house we're in, would be returning. They were sent to Virginia instead. Then our rent went up. The housing list was stagnant. We were number 40, meaning 39 families were before us on the very-sought-after-housing area. Because Bill deployed, they bumped us up. I don't understand the logic completely. I guess it's to try to move families in before the husband (or sometimes wife) leaves. That got us to number 10. Then we moved back to 12. Huh? Now we're at number 6. SIX. Holy cow. Do I move my entire house while Bill is in Japan, or wherever it is that he'll be? Can I move? We have no idea where we'll be going when he returns from deployment number 3. It would be really really awful to move if we'd just have to pack it up again in four months. It's happened. Not to us, fortunately. If we stay here, am I willing to give up my gigantic yard where my kids can freely play on their swingset and Leah can call the bunnies? "Bunn-ay....oh, BuNNN-ay!" We'd lose a bedroom and a yard but gain an almost new house and a shared wall (duplexes, ya know). There's a community pool, gym, clubhouse and uber-safe neighborhoods (which we haven't quite experienced here). The best part? No rent or utilities. But that's completely conditional upon Bill's return to THIS base.

My brain. It cannot process. I need to know. Plan. Sketch. Obsess.

And just how did I end up the wife of a Marine? Maybe this is God's way of stretching me. Growing me. Preparing me? I sure do fight it.


Grace F said...

bloghopped from the Raggedy One! just want u to know I am a planning freak. I can totally understand your situation although I am not a Marine's wife. Hey is your husband in Japan? I am in Japan --there's really no connection to that, sorry! Love your blog!

Bill said...

Princess, I'm sure I'd be able to stay at our current duty station, if that's what you want me to do.

Raggedy said...

More about the green aura:
I will add you to the green list.

GREEN AURA COLOR: It is a very comfortable, healthy color of nature. When seen in the aura this usually represents growth and balance, and most of all, something that leads to change. Greens love people, animals, and nature. They make good teachers and social workers. Greens are very friendly people. Green is the color of sympathy and calm. A person who has green in his or her aura may be very good at the healing arts and is very reliable.

Greens are balanced, harmonious, and peaceful personalities. They need harmony in their life and prefer to live in a natural environment. They are the most balanced people in the color spectrum. They also have a powerful connection with nature. Living in the country, next to a forest or park or close to a lake or ocean is important for these friendly and heartfelt personalities. Greens are open, extroverted, expressive, friendly, communicative and heartfelt. Greens perceive life through their heart. Their primary motivations are contentment and harmony. They judge their successes by how close they are to their friends or nature. Greens are content personalities. If they are in power and have found their place they need very little to be happy or feel needed. Their inner happiness and satisfaction is important to them and is fulfilled without much expectation. Greens want to feel happy and content with their lives. They understand clearly that the higher they set their goals the more difficult they will be to achieve. They also have an inner understanding of the natural cycles and laws of life. They believe that to live, as a human being is life's most wonderful gift. Green personalities are very talkative and communicative. They say exactly, what they think. They can talk for hours about almost any subject, often without saying very much. A good "chat" is therapeutic and allows them to release and express their deep feelings and concerns. Greens have a need to talk about themselves and their problems so they can understand them and feel better. If they are unhappy or frustrated they will discharge their frustration verbally. It is difficult for Greens to hold back or contain their thoughts and feelings. They have natural ways of expressing their emotions and feelings. If a Green is angry they will shout. If they are sad, tears will come. If they are jealous, you will see the reaction immediately.

Have a wonderful day!
(=':'=) hugs
(")_ (")Š from da Raggedy one

Raggedy said...

Number six is getting pretty dern close to making a decision.
I have lived both on and off base and there is definitely a good and bad to both.
I think whatever you decide will be fine.
It really is up to you to decide wether you prefer living on or off base.
Off base worked better for my family.
A move would seem a bit overwhelming with Bill gone, but I am sure there would be people more than happy to help you.
The Rabby thing is soooooo cute...
Hang in there hun!
Huge Hugs

Judy said...

Ooh, I'm just thinking of you - hang in there. I'm a list girl, too - have to make the calendar and schedule in potty breaks for myself (almost). Whatever it is, it will be the right decision for you.

Manda said...

Whatever you do, you should make sure you are close to Yeah like I know that is possible. I hope everything works out for ya!Luv ya